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MistressVixen

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Alright so I want to make this very clear, that I am in NO WAY attached to this drama. What happened between Psicorp's owner Psistorm and his ex is their own business. I don't approve of either side.


But there is someone that has been impersonating me, making it apparent that I only support Psi through all this.

I have reported this person, and responded on my own time, to tell others this is NOT me.


My personal opinion is Psi is the victim here. Verity has always treated me poorly and very rudely from the get go, as well as all the evidence that has been brought to light; Verity is the abuser.

That said? I don't give a flying fuck what they did on the sidelines. They did it on their own time and only involved each other, and made it a stupid move to make it public. According to Psi, it grossed him out to RP this, but being so 'conditioned' to agree with everything she said, he was forced into it.


I absolutely don't condone what they did. But, both are consenting adults that RP'd a fantasy, so legally, there's nothing... wrong...?? With what they did. The morality of it however, is where they were in the wrong. I believe Psi should have put his foot down sooner, and told her to get fucked, but again; abuse does weird things to people.


All the evidence I've seen points against Verity being in the wrong here. And since I'm sure, NONE OF THOSE INVOLVED ARE FUCKING LAWYERS, It's none of your fucking business what they did, and WHY they did it. No one was hurt. No one underaged was actually involved.


If you choose to stop supporting Psicorp however, that is totally okay. It's your right to do so!


I want it to be known that Magican Productions (my SL store) is not affiliated with Psicorp. I may do mods for Psicorp's parts, but they are NOT affiliated in any. Other. Way. The only thing I have associated with Psicorp is I am a beta tester for his parts. And after all the drama and being dragged into it, I may end up leaving after this current project of his is done, I'm honestly not sure yet.


I'm in a position that I could easily walk away and nothing bad would come of it, but as there are people CLAIMING to be me, making me seem like some kind of fangirl for Psi, is really going to hurt my brand in the long run, due to people pulling the "guilty until proven innocent" mentality. Thus, I'm honestly not sure what to do here. I've spent a long time distancing myself from toxic people and continue to do so. Verity was one of those people, but Psi has never been rude to me, at all.


This situation isn't black or white. I'm sure Psi did things that didn't I didn't see, (I tried looking into Verity's side of things but they were already hidden by the time I looked,) and like every relationship, it obviously isn't one-sided.


I've been a customer of Psi for over a decade. Not once has he ever made some sort of... indication, that he liked underaged individuals. I don't know him personally, however, and from there, I don't think I have a right to judge.

But neither does ANYONE ELSE.


If you quit working with/buying Psi's products, great. But don't sit there and drag anyone else into this drama that weren't apart of it to begin with, and SHAME them for still supporting Psi's brand. Fucking drop it, and move on.

It isn't about you. It isn't about me. It's about Verity and Psi. And as far as I'm concerned, it should have ONLY been about them.


Now that I've said my peace, take it what you will. I will NOT be a part of Virtual Secrets. I do not want to drag myself down with drama that doesn't concern me. My blood pressure can't take it. So if you see me anywhere outside of SL, Discord, Twitter, Youtube, and Imgur, know it's NOT me. I will either go by BekNos, BeckyRAT, or MistressVixen. Becky Nosferatu is rarely used outside of SL.


Thanks for reading.

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So, I want to start off saying this; this drama is Second Life related and one of the only ways I can get this point out there for people to stop dragging me into this shit once and for all; so if you aren't apart of this SL Drama, this isn't a journal for you.

For those who AREN'T apart of this drama, I will quickly summarize WHAT I HAVE EXPERIENCED, SEEN AND BEEN APART OF.

Currently, she is under the impression that I have stalked her, which, is hilarious to me as I keep hearing about her from other people. No matter where I go (as I am very open with the Avatar/Mod community,) I hear people telling me to "don't collab, don't talk to, Don't get close to," this one creator.

Fellow creators have had problems with other creators, stalking, harassing and generally dragging people's hard-earned names through the mud. At no point in my ENTIRE Avatar making career, have I ever seen someone so psychotic and in desperate need of medication outside of dealing with this ONE individual.

People love to call me a "bully" over my involvement, but the fact is, I have been asked for advice, shown screenshots and logs, seen the harassment directly and on the sidelines from Discord servers, Second Life reviews on the marketplace and various other indications this kind of thing is going on. I was invited to see this stuff due to my large Mod/Avatar centric mall and creator sim. Not only am I on the City Council for this sim, I am also the person who has to make decisions involving creators and potential 'renters' (I quote that here, as they don't ACTUALLY rent, they are invited for free to put their store here) on our sim and in the store.


I had to make a decision for this 'creator,' and I say "creator," because of everything they have done, involved themselves with and has caused serious strife among creators, they were banned from our sim and from any project I'm involved in. I have personally seen this individual go from sugary sweet and nice to an instant Karen, threatening, insulting and genuinely turn down-right nasty to people who they don't get along with, for no reason other than they didn't like what was said. In fact, the reason they are banned from our sim is as follows: https://gyazo.com/e6cb37b020e0e21e4f43b71ca702836e THE ONLY REASON I am even sharing this is they have been recently claiming that I stalk them, that I'm a bully and how everyone is 'afraid of me.' I'd love to clarify that at no point have I ever stalked this person. AS MENTIONED ABOVE, Plenty of people have come to me and told me to avoid them. Their ban comes from an ordeal over a dolphin avatar that they did not make the mesh over. They tried to cover their tracks as best as they could, but internet sleuths were able to point me to the dolphin being on Sketchfab (or one of those sites, basically,) which mark their meshes as being illegal for Second Life Users to upload and claim as their own. I was pointed in the direction over the texture artist, because after trying the dolphin and asking people about the notecard, not ONCE did it mention the texture artist. I am an extreme hardcore believer of YOU FUCKING CREDIT YOUR ARTIST, and so I went to the artist to ask if they were, indeed, getting fairly comped. They said they were. So why did I do that? Because a good friend and ANOTHER fellow creator, did the rigging for it and was basically told "No, fuck you, I do what I want, you can't prove I didn't make this rig." I'm still not sure, to this day, if that rigging was ever used, I was simply shown screenshots of the conversation. Prior to the Dolphin, there was questions over what they called the "Nocturne dragon" (It was just Toothless. Straight up, Which is already against the SL TOS, but that's a gripe for another day.) And stopped paying the animator, rigging partner AND texture partner, because they got fed up with this person and how they were treating everyone. Did I mention that dragon was in BETA and sold for 6,000 Lindens? That's one of the most expensive dragons that ever hit the market, and it was "slated" to go UP in price from there.


From there, another dragon avatar was then outright stolen from another creator friend, whom was already struggling to get over the last drama with his other, completely unrelated, dragon avatar. She sold it on her Marketplace and from what I was told, cut out of the deal completely. The dragon mesh wasn't even hers.


So if by me finding out the real reason that she should be banned from an avatar/mod store by theft of other creator's hard work and passing it off as her own makes me a bully, so be it.


But no. I do not stalk. This is ALL stuff that other people have brought to me, that have been involved with this person, (and there's A LOT of them,) who have all agreed on one thing; she is a liar, a thief, plays the victim, and will turn on you the moment you say something she doesn't like. I have seen this first hand and second hand. It's disgusting behavior and honestly? Since I know you're going to be reading this, Please, seek mental help. You clearly need it. People don't make up weird scenarios in their heads like you do who aren't on some... crazy fucking meds.

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So... I've got something I gotta get off my chest. The past few weeks has weighed heavily on my mind, thanks to my health. For those who know me, and go away back, You all probably know of my idiocy with me being an adrenaline junky when I was a teen and it cost me my left knee. For years, I struggled with it, and over the past 5 years, both knees are pretty fucked; they ache if I bend to far, to much motion causing my kneecaps to dislocate (oh, let me tell you, that's as painful as it seems,) and it's pretty much made me locked into either a wheelchair or my cane. Even the days when I feel "good" enough, I overachieve and cause my knees to either lock up and I never know until I'm mid-stride or my knee dislocates.

I've been attempting Physical Therapy but, all the treatments I was doing had caused my Fibromyalgia flair up to badly and it had me down in bed. Believe me, it's been as frustrating as it sounds.

Let's also not forget the last treatment, I was supposed to be 'taped' which was a harder tape that basically worked like a knee brace, but I had to stop within 20 minutes of having that on, due to the fact I'm allergic to Latex and it had latex IN IT.

While I feel that years ago, I came to the conclusion and feeling that I will never go another day without physical pain for as long as I live... this is only driving it home, further. The final nail in the coffin is, I'm only 33. I'm not even midway through my life and all I have, day by day, is pain. Horrible, debilitating, ground-breaking and exhausting physical pain.

And now my hands are also starting to revert to before my surgery.

I know as teen and child, I was the kid who cried wolf. Believe me, I was a stupid, attention-seeking and had to have everything and everyone give me pitty. Now that I'm actually having non-stop pain in both mental and physical sense, I don't even know where to begin.

And it drags me down. Yeah, I shouldn't be denied my disability and that's a plus to me having all these issues, but ...I want to be worth my own fatass weight. I WANT to work. I want to make my own money. I want to EARN my keep. And I just... can't.

I've tried. I get sick and stressed and my anxiety, depression and PTSD kick up to 1000% percent if I try. If I push myself physically, walking to far or long, I'm in bed, sobbing to myself because of how much pain I have and how little I can do to get relief.

It's probably Karma, for how attention seeking I was a kid. But the logical reaction is actually all the torment Troy gave me as I was growing up; my therapist told me that when you live non-stop fight or flight lifestyle actually fucks you up physically and mentally due to the mental state never supposed to HAVE that chemical going nonstop, I still feel a good majority of the suffering I have is nothing more than karma laughing in my face.

I don't know where I'm going with this. I just wanted to vent, I guess. There are days when I just question my actions and life and feel so dragged down of my current 'lifestyle' (which is virtually non-existent) that a lot of my mentality is questioning whether I'm actually supposed to live. Don't worry, it's not like I'm talking about suicide, I just feel this wasn't the life I was supposed to have. I feel it was robbed from me, though. Everyone always praised my art and my creativity and yet, I can't make my own living involving that talent because it's far to stressful, and I feel that was what I was supposed to do with my life.

I want to finish my book, but I am far to critical of my own work to try and finish at times, or I'm just in to much pain to focus. And then as I write, I find myself writing in such a way that I'm not writing properly or good enough. I worry that my book is far to progressive, too- several of my characters would cause so much controversy I worry that won't be well received. Or it will be released and swept under the rug and nothing will come of it.

Obviously, that's not a guarantee, but that's something I worry about. But anyway...
I don't know where I was going with this rant. I just had to get it off my chest, I guess.

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It's crazy... ever since my surgery, I have been pumping out art left and right. Working, toiling away at a bunch of pieces that I've wanted to start and finish.

While only two have been posted, I've got a few more that I'll be posting soon, especially ones that you all will enjoy, as well as commissions that need finished!

Whew!

So if you guys are interested in commissions...

Sketch: $10
Bust: $15
Full body, full color/shading: $25
Full background, full colors/shading; $35

Additional: $15 per full color/shaded character. $5 per sketched.

Message me either on Discord: A Meat Popsicle#4546, Here, FB or DA. You can even message my Tumblr if you'd like:  magicanuniverse.tumblr.com

Currently I have commissions for:
My Freddy Kreuger RPer.
My good friend and boss, Moff.
An old friend Mik for his Bloodkin character.
Bixyl on SL for a character from his book.
And for Becky D of Furry Fashion for her two Sapiant characters!

Whew~ I hope to get them done soon! If you want a commission, they ARE open, but these aforementioned take precedence, since it's been before my surgery that I took some of these.
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Big update~!

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So, I have been working my butt off with working on my art and characters world- I am going to be very selective with what I put on my gallery now because I'm going to look into copyright for my characters and creatures for my books that I am currently in the process of writing. I plan to get it published.

So as you've seen for the past few posts, they're very specific races and such for my stories. None of my stories will be posted, obviously, but I will be linking the book once it's published. I'm starting the details and getting the science down.

So! That's why I've been more active. I want to get all the art done, including a massive project I've been working on and I'm excited to get it done.

I'M STILL ACCEPTING COMMISSIONS! Bonus points to you if you want something from Magica :D

Sketch Portrait - $2 USD
Colored Portrait - $5 USD
Sketch Full body - $12 USD
Colored Full body - $17 USD

Ref sheets: $30+ USD (Depending on the level of detail you want)

anything beyond those listed will need to be discussed. I won’t offer my paypal until AFTER we’ve discussed things. So send me an ask. Or message me on discord: A Meat Popsicle #4546

Ref sheet: Anthro Glowstick

Portrait: Steven Lloyd

Full body: House Dragon
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